Death of a best friend(ship)

I have to wonder sometimes. Do you miss me as much as I miss you? Not being holier than thou, yet I still think about you. Not because I need you (that too) but because I want you to be ok. The instinct to survive is by far the strongest in all of us and I know we will both eventually be fine. Just want to make sure if this is how you want it. Actually I'm lying, I know this is how you want it. Just hoping you'd want things to change.
What triggered this?
Thought of our laughing endlessly,jus looking into eachother s eyes nd understanding wat both of us want to say,not wanting nybody else to stay wid us as our privacy was disturbed..(lol),roaming aimlessly in dallman mall,repeatively visiting sentiments nd not buying a single thing jus memorised the prices..(lol),eating out nd deciding the food keeping in mind how much money we both hav at that moment,not sensing the need of getting into the mini buses rather prefering to walk if da distance is not much nd then saying to each other "hum kitnay bare kunjoos aur khuwaar hain"...lol..nd wat not.there exist unending memories.
I never replaced you. I can't. Never even tried. I guess I can't understand how things just change. Again I lie. I know how they change, I just don't believe they have.
I miss you. Miss us. Not me when we were us. Or you when you were us. That's enough to crack us up. Do you still care?