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ch.....the only thing i hate abt myself iis dat i cant express myself,i cant ever open up,even if i try i cant share it with ppl watever is in my heart,at times i get into such difficult situations that i feel like running away k kia mushkil he....i want to say it alll,som times i get really frustrated n i need to talk n then i fail to bring words out of myself.....even if i make points in my mind k oky now ill talk abt dis dis dis stuff even then i cant mould my feelings into words,its somthng getting worst day by day.n then i end up with things remaining in my heart,that keeps m into much a difficult condition.either i want to express my anger,my grattitude,my love,my affection,talk abt my daily routine i cant say it:((((((it all jus remains inside me,ive tried alot but all in vain:(

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At times there r som ppl u jus simplyy HATE,i wish i had no relation wid these two ppl in my life,i seriously hate these two ppl,i wish i cud erase the relationship in b/w me n those two ppl as i can delete the relationship b/w two entities in the database structure,but i cant do dis.........ive got a real close relation so close that i cant do without them...at times i think it wud hav been better if these ppl didnt exist in the chapter of my life n i stayed all alone but not have them in nyyyyyyyyy section of my life time.....phew:(

Graduation Comments

"Our souls remain hovering in places where we once enjoyed ourselves"

khalil jibran

Finally da countdown of graduation has begun,I never wanted to write dis down coz then It wud mean”the end” from dis place we call NED.It’s a bitter sweet moment,da pleasure of accomplishment brings wid a tinge of sorrow,as I leave behind the institution dat has made me who im,gave me my individuality,stands me out from all the rest,a place dat ive grown so fond of,a place dats so very mine,I never realised dat time will jus appear to overtake as a flash.Its finally over,im done wid dis eventfull,influential journey at NED.Those precious recollections will always remain som where in my heart,memories dat ill treasure for a life time…...getting up early in the mornin,me n jiya waitn for the buses in scorching heats,worries for the printouts,naashta at BCR,last moment thank Ussss to da teachers,never ending laughters dat jav n I ve shared,our so very well dissolved chemistry,its difficult to leave a place uve dedicated 4 precious years of ur life wid all ur heart n allegiance. now as closing da most embellished chapter of my life that was,as people call it “the golden period”…..I would keenly like to Thank The All Mighty n My PARENTS.And dedicate my stay at NED to JAVERIA without whom da endurance here wud hav been undreamed of.

Graduation comments being submitted for the year book.

A page from my memories!!!!!!

Was jus goin through my folder i got to find somthing which i had saved somtime nd did not remember....it took me som where back into my memories nd brought a smile on my face,reminded me of a frend a dear frend,who is no more wid me,but the memories r here still,no matter u decide to stay away,u decide to break the bond of frendship for each other s sake,no matter how much u make ur self understand that its a part of life BUT relations once made r never forgotten,even u leave them far behind nd move forward still the momeries of them remain there which always remind u of their existence,the existence of those ppl u once enjoyed ur life wid,the existence of the feeling u once had.
Relations,frendships once formed,nd even broken after their formation,they exist forever,u cannot wipe their prints off ur heart ur mind nd ur memories..............i dont know if im making any sense,dont know jus writing wat ever is coming into my mind.......nyways here it goes......

aye aurat agar dunya mein eik hazar merd tujhe chahen

tu mein un mein se eik hoonga.........

aye aurat agar dunya mein so merd tujhe chahen

tu main un mein se eik hoonga...........

aye aurat agar dunya mein das merd tujhe chahen

tu main un mein se eik hoonga..........

aye aurat agar dunya mein eik merd tujhe chahe

tu woh main hi hoonga......

aye aurat agar dunya mein koi tujhe na chae tu tanha ho akeli ho

tu yeh samajh lena ke durrr kahin paharon mein

main marr chuka hoonga....................

I wish i cud b the one.....

" The entire sum of existence is the magic of being needed by just one person. "

VII Putnam

I really wish if i cud b the one,but it seems really difficult somwat impossible.May b it needs time....dont know.It might take som time to make my impression,my room in dat particular space,all i can do is to wish nd pray.coz i never forget thet there is definitely SOMONE always there listening to us might listen to me aswell somday,InshaAllah very sooooon.

is it too late?

to re capture a feeling, to invoke, to discover, to promise, to love, to giggle, to make peace, to do laundry, to smile with both eyes, to see yourself in someone'e eyes, to dance, to soar, to jump with joy, to blindly believe, to pour your heart out, to laugh uncontrollably, to sleep without dreams, to dream with open eyes, to speak without thinking, to pause, to absorb, to breathe, to fight for who you love, to get a second chance, to give a second chance, to be who you want to be, to scream, to fall knowing you will be caught, to break free, to love without a happy ending, to smile, to laugh, to believe, to know that what you know is right, to trust your instincts, to yearn, to bring the passion back, to make the bells ring, to skip, to say enough, to protect, to love, to live, to sing without words, to take a risk, to love him(i wish i cud),to get the whole of him.

Death of a best friend(ship)

I have to wonder sometimes. Do you miss me as much as I miss you? Not being holier than thou, yet I still think about you. Not because I need you (that too) but because I want you to be ok. The instinct to survive is by far the strongest in all of us and I know we will both eventually be fine. Just want to make sure if this is how you want it. Actually I'm lying, I know this is how you want it. Just hoping you'd want things to change.
What triggered this?
Thought of our laughing endlessly,jus looking into eachother s eyes nd understanding wat both of us want to say,not wanting nybody else to stay wid us as our privacy was disturbed..(lol),roaming aimlessly in dallman mall,repeatively visiting sentiments nd not buying a single thing jus memorised the prices..(lol),eating out nd deciding the food keeping in mind how much money we both hav at that moment,not sensing the need of getting into the mini buses rather prefering to walk if da distance is not much nd then saying to each other "hum kitnay bare kunjoos aur khuwaar hain"...lol..nd wat not.there exist unending memories.
I never replaced you. I can't. Never even tried. I guess I can't understand how things just change. Again I lie. I know how they change, I just don't believe they have.
I miss you. Miss us. Not me when we were us. Or you when you were us. That's enough to crack us up. Do you still care?